I finally made the decision. I’ve had a good run on NaNo. I learned a lot from it, but starting in 2012, it’s become more of a hindrance than a help. With a stack of novels waiting to be finished, and even more short stories, plus two nonfiction projects, taking a month off to write one more while the others get shoved into a corner, NaNo just doesn’t make sense for me anymore. I deleted all my info and closed my account this morning. There’s a tiny tinge of nostalgia, but I don’t really have any regrets.
The story collection will still happen and is 22,000 words toward that goal. Two stories are complete first drafts, and most of the others are well-started. Over the two or three months that I spent developing the ideas, and during the first week of actually writing, I discovered that my concept of the book had evolved, and was turning into something a bit different from the original plan. And it’s still evolving, a process that I had to put on hold in order to write it during one frantic month.
I don’t enjoy the stress, and I no longer need the discipline, or the confidence that writing a novel in a month used to bring. So it’s ‘Thank you, NaNo, but it’s time to say goodbye.