Getting There Fast — White, Christian America — Under Water

Behind the scenes. Behind your back. Under your nose.

Yes, this is a rant.

While you’re being entertained, amused, distracted — the far-right agenda is being carried out, spreading. In towns you’ve never heard of, on school boards that few bother to vote for, in police departments with new high-tech military toys, and implicit permission from their commander-in-chief — your president.

Deportations of “the bad guys” is now deportation of anyone with a non-white skin or name — with no criminal records, with businesses and families, with medals from serving honorably in US wars.

Black men and boys are dying at escalating rates — at the hands of police. But you can’t kill everyone, or deport them all, so jails and prisons will do very well to help keep American society white.

But you know what? All this is small potatoes. Because nature as we know it is dying, and a good portion of life on earth will be dying with it. It doesn’t matter whether you do or don’t believe in climate change. Doesn’t matter who you think is at fault. It’s happening now, and faster than cautious scientists have been predicting. But even the most cautious are now speaking out, warning, letting the facts speak for themselves instead of softening them for popular consumption.

The information is there. It’s always been there. If you want to go on being entertained, amused, distracted that’s your choice. Too bad it won’t be a choice for your children and grandchildren.

Cart Before the Horse

You do have to wonder, sometimes. But anyone who can commit four errors in just 111 words, should probably think about doing almost anything rather than being a writer. A request on KBoards this morning, for help with a promotional site, instantly triggered my grammar nazi persona.

In that short space of 111 words, including the title of the thread, this “author” misspelled the name of the site they were interested in (not being able to spell is one thing, but not even being capable of copying something correctly…?). Then they went on to put an apostrophe in possessive “its,” identify the site as a median, and finished up, brilliantly, with a comma splice.

It’s an inevitable outcome, of course, of the mentality that self-publishing can foster. The money’s out there; publishing is easy so jump in with both feet. Do you have the bare basics of writing under your belt? Oh, that! Nobody really cares about spelling, grammar, or word usage these days.

Will anyone on the forum give this would-be author a heads up? Not in public. Let’s hope that someone does it via a private message. No, not me. Anyone with as slippery a grip on the language as that isn’t going to benefit from a polite note. I doubt that he/she even notices that all the responses spelled the site name differently from his/her mangling — correctly.

Beware the Loner

“Man is by nature a social animal; an individual who is unsocial naturally and not accidentally is either beneath our notice or more than human. Society is something that precedes the individual. Anyone who either cannot lead the common life or is so self-sufficient as not to need to, and therefore does not partake of society, is either a beast or a god. ” Aristotle

Who can argue with the great Aristotle? Doesn’t our own society show us how potentially dangerous the loner is? From regarding the non-social student as a future mass shooter, to the inane preventive measures like #walk up not out, anyone who stands out simply by not being a member of the group is being increasingly demonized. It’s bad enough that befriending a loner is considered a good deed (whether they are or aren’t interested in being befriended), but the most recent angle tossed out by some alt-right idiot is that the Parkland massacre was the fault of the survivors, who are en masse being blamed for bullying the shooter.

The bias — if not outright fear — of loners is everywhere lately. In an article entitled Can There be an Atheist Church, I find the statement: “…the church answers to another deep human need—the need to identify and belong.” It’s become almost a mantra that everyone repeats endlessly and mindlessly. Human beings are herd/group animals. They need to belong. The individual who’s not part of a group of some kind, even if it’s just immediate family, must necessarily be depressed, miserable, lonely, and potentially dangerous.

So strong is the perceived connection between failing to be part of a group of some kind, and loneliness, that Britain has arrived at the solution: a minister of loneliness. In fact, loneliness is now considered an epidemic. Granted that social change, among other factors, means that connections may be easier to lose, and more difficult to create, and is a problem that particularly affects older people. But there seems to be no interest in inquiring as to the difference between those who are alone and miserable and those who are alone and happy, or at least comfortable with their situation.

Whether it’s the young (usually male) loner who we are being taught to look at with suspicion, or the oldster whose only companion is the tv, we are failing to look beyond the simplistic idea that humans are (all) group animals. Maybe what we are overlooking is the possibility that people need to learn how to live with themselves, as individuals.


Weekend Randomness

The last year, right up to this month, has been a journey through hell. Along with the major hit to my health and the ongoing consequences, plus other highly stressful external stuff, I haven’t been able to write. Blog posts have been difficult enough. Working on long projects has been impossible. The ideas are there, and the damned things keep coming. But the mere thought of trying to make my way through the thousands of words it takes to create a novel? There’s nothing there. No ambition, no motivation, no nothing. It’s hard to even care. Any concern over the situation is faraway and abstract.

I’ve wandered from one WIP to another, hoping that one of them would be the spark to fire up my mind. No such luck. Until a couple of days ago. One of the external stressors resolved itself more or less happily. It could easily have gone the other way, and nothing I could have done about it but watch helplessly as it played itself out. However, I’ve also been slowly reducing one of my meds which is only one of those I’m taking that can cause depression. So who knows? I’m feeling a tiny bit of ambition again, but whether it’s going to continue and maybe increase is still a question without an answer.


I don’t understand all the hoopla about the movie version of Annihilation. Of course, I didn’t understand the hoopla about the book, either. I read the book. I haven’t seen the movie and won’t. To put it bluntly, I disliked the book intensely. I’d bought the whole trilogy at the thrift store for less than a dollar, and considered I was getting a good deal. Books that I’d take a stab at reading, just out of curiosity, if the price was right, but not otherwise. Result? I recycled them back to the thrift store, the second and third volumes unread.

The worst thing about Annihilation is that it isn’t science fiction, even though that’s how it’s categorized and described. It’s horror, and not even very well done horror. I don’t read horror because I’m not easily horrified, especially by books and movies that are designed to be horrifying. You want horror? Take a look at the real world, particularly those parts of the world that American news sources make sure you don’t run across very often. Our delicate sensibilities must be protected. But imaginary monsters are perfectly okay.

All right, that’s a rant. To continue.

There are dozens — maybe hundreds — of blog reviews of the movie. When I bother to skim a few, it becomes apparent that the writers haven’t read the book. They may remark on the fact that the movie is very different from the book — another of those “based on” attempts to translate words into a financial success. If a book is “unfilmable,” all you have to do is tear it apart, restructure it, invent new characters, plotlines, etc. Apparently, Jeff VanderMeer is perfectly comfortable with having his book chopped into little pieces and then reassembled. Given that the book comes across like exactly that — ideas smashed together in a sufficiently vague way that forbids you getting a grip on it, I’m not surprised. The book has no real substance, so it’s appropriate that the movie, from what I gather, has no real substance either. It can be interpreted any way you want, even allowing some deluded reviewers to rhapsodize over its intellectual content — a movie of ideas!

Is Resistance Futile?

If you still have the capacity to read something that takes more than two minutes to get through and actually requires that you get your thought processes into gear, I recommend one of Charles Stross’s recent blog posts. It’s actually the transcript of a speech he gave, and provides more than the shallow analyses of social media, tracking, privacy issues, etc., that are calculated to make you gasp with horror for a moment or two before you go on to the next trivial pursuit.

Dude, You Broke the Future!

The question that always comes up (for me, anyway) when reading articles like this, is: is there any escape from the negative effects of current technologies that run the internet?

Suppose, like me, you don’t use any of the social media sites — no Twitter, no Facebook, etc. You don’t have a smart phone, or if you do, you don’t use any but the most basic apps — the ones that enable communication between two people in the form of speech or text — no internet, no movies, no social media, etc. You use an online-only name, have an avatar in place of a photo of your face, and you either ignore or anonymize demands for personal information.

Does WordPress attempt to pin down my likes and dislikes, my needs as a writer or a possible customer? I have no idea. But Amazon surely does. To a certain extent that makes Amazon my achilles heel, but there’s still very little they can do to direct my attention to consumer items they think I’d want to buy. Part of that failure is based on their having no idea exactly why I might look at items. Thus they have no way of anticipating whether I will or won’t look at them again and eventually make a purchase.

That’s the failure of algorithms that can’t deal with motivation, whether it’s about stuff to buy or how to vote. It’s also the failure of algorithms that are set up as nags, in the belief that sooner of later you will succumb to the demands, such as whitelisting sites rather than blocking their ads, because you’re guilted about using them without supporting them.

Escaping the all-seeing eyes is probably impossible unless you live in the woods and don’t use the internet or a cell phone, but you do have discretionary powers if you care to use them. If you choose not to, then you will have no right to complain when you find your ability to function as a free human being rated and limited by algorithms similar to those now being put in place in China. The United States is on the cusp of becoming an autocratic semi-dictatorship. The choice is to acquiesce or resist.



Britain’s New Minister of Loneliness — WTF?

No, it isn’t a joke.Britain has appointed someone to help combat the “epidemic” of loneliness, which has come to afflict millions of people. And, according to the endless stream of articles that’s been popping up lately, it’s a scourge in the US also, and in the “rich” nations generally.

While it’s true that many, many people live alone these days, as a result of loose family ties or, heaven protect us, no family ties or friends, there’s a difference between loneliness and being alone. This isn’t a new issue at all, and may be more widespread than in the past, but it seems to have always existed. I first learned about this “problem” 30 or 40 years ago when I read Anthony Storr’s Solitude: a Return to the Self, first published in 1988.

Solitude was seminal in challenging the psychological paradigm that “interpersonal relationships of an intimate kind are the chief, if not the only, source of human happiness.” Indeed, most self-help literature still places relationships at the center of human existence. Lucid and lyrical, Storr’s book argues that solitude ranks alongside relationships in its impact on an individual’s well-being and productivity, as well as on society’s progress and health.

Call me naive, but what amazed me about Storr’s premise was that it was considered some kind of breakthrough in psychology, that it even needed to be said. Of course, I’m an extreme introvert, but that it was (and still is) normal to equate loneliness and solitude was hard to grasp. With a few decades of experiential wisdom at my fingertips, though, I’m much less surprised at the recent rise in concern. If loneliness is considered an epidemic these days, Storr’s book hasn’t changed anything, just as other such books fail to change anything.

Humans are considered herd animals, so their upbringing and education treats them as herd animals. Proper socialization is at the heart of how we bring up our children, so if everything’s going as it should, they have no time to themselves, no way to appreciate the benefits of at least moderate periods of solitude, no opportunity or incentive to look into themselves and discover who they are, as individuals.

Maybe the real problem with social media and smart phones is not selfies, sexting, and addiction, is that they guarantee that no one is ever alone.

Britain now has a minister for loneliness

People in rich countries are dying of loneliness




January 3, 2018 — Irrelevant Nonsense of the Day

Table for One: the Controversial Art of Dining Solo. Think that eating alone, either in a restaurant or at home, can’t be turned into a hot subject for people with nothing better to talk about? “The stigma around solo dining is fading. Is this a hard-won victory for solitude, or a damaging form of isolation?”

Pay attention folks; this is important to your well-being, according someone who calls himself Keff. “…the stigma is there to prevent the long-term costs for human happiness and health that come with this kind of anti-socialization. ‘The more you eat alone, the more out of touch with humanity you become,'”

I could post stuff like this every day and never run out of topics.

Mid-holiday Ramblings

I don’t do holidays, so that title up there is just a convenient label. I spent The Day by myself and had macaroni and cheese for dinner. All quite voluntary. I could have had a big dinner and spent time with the family, but have less interest with every year that goes by, in breaking out of my comfortable hermit’s habitat.

Add to that reluctance, my hatred of extreme cold and our plunge into the second cold snap (even more severe than the last one) of the winter. Waking up this morning to -1 with a windchill of -7 doesn’t exactly tempt me to take delight in the great outdoors. We’ve already had more snow than we had all last winter, and the arctic temps forecast for the next week or more are making up for the nearly basky previous winter.

Writing has been off the table for some months now, except for jotting down notes and fragments. Most days, it has felt like a rather permanent end to my short career as an author. I look at the unfinished works and wonder where the enthusiasm went. But not just the enthusiasm — the belief that there is some reason for writing has escaped me.

So what have I been doing? Reading. Lots and lots of reading. My library is swollen with important or interesting-looking books picked up for pennies at the Salvation Army store. I probably discard more than I read through, and have discovered that literary fiction is the most likely to be put in the recycle pile. I just do not give a damn about the details of ordinary characters’ lives. Maybe I unknowingly satisfied my curiosity in my teens and 20s, reading all those classics. Maybe it’s just that most families, and most individual characters, seem so interchangeable, no matter how well they’re written. Their lives are of no more consequence than my own, which, even to me, seems to have had no particular reason for having taken up some space in the world for a short time.

I know all this must seem terribly sad. I must be dangerously depressed. There are days when it feels like depression. But most days, it’s a state of calm objectivity. That’s the way things are, so why cry about it? There are certain normal human feelings that I’ve always lacked, so it may be that the others get more playtime than would be considered healthy.

But I just made a loaf of bread, and I have one of my writing projects open. “All shall be well, and all shall be well, and all manner of thing shall be well.” There was a time when that homily by Julian of Norwich was my mantra. Funny, considering that I’m a lifelong atheist, but I take wisdom where I find it.


An Observer’s Notes

It’s a shame, really; they had so much potential. Still do, as a matter of fact, although it’s nearly submerged now in the detritus of their civilizations. My colleagues insist that there were very few, out of the historical billions that populated this planet, who actually possessed any potential. As much as I would like to argue the point, I can’t, not if I don’t wish to join the nearly extinct species in the very delusions that inexorably steered them in the direction of self-destruction.

Yes, it’s a pity. Just one more of the universe’s failed experiments. But the majority have always been failures, haven’t they? It would almost lead you to believe that the universe is conscious, blithely mixing and stirring, just to see what the results might be, the failures and successes of equal disinterest. That the failures suffer along the way to their extinction isn’t any concern of the universe. That my own people have succeeded isn’t any more its concern than if we’d failed. For, after all, our sun will eventually go out, as they all do, bound by the laws that structure birth, death and decay in all its manifestations. In that sense, we are no more successful than these pitiful remnants on the planet home its inhabitants dubbed Earth.

We’re going home soon. When the last human has succumbed to the fouling of earth, air and water, to the near-death of earth itself, we will leave the planet to its own resources. When it’s deemed time enough, another group of observers will make their way here, to watch, to hope, to see what arises from the ruins.

Year’s Best Books in the Age of the Selfie

“Best of” lists are inevitable and unavoidable at the end of every year. I can’t think of any good reason for the existence of these lists other than as one more way to inspire “holiday” spending. But they can be interesting. Take this one, published today (December 18): Electric Literature’s 15 Best Nonfiction Books of 2017.

In a year which has seen multiple serious issues come to the foreground, what did Electric Literature’s staff and contributors name as their”favorite factual writing?” Three are concerned with topics of substance, two or three with significant cultural issues that, while currently in the spotlight, are, on the somewhat ephemeral side. The remainder are either partly or wholly concerned with the author’s lives — memoirs.

In the main, this particular list is dominated by “me” as a subject of all-consuming interest, at least to their authors. It’s a bias I see everywhere on the internet: the apparent belief that the author’s life with its confessions, revelations, and angst is fascinating to readers. That’s as true of the essays that fill book review sites, sites like Medium, and even news sites, as it is of the year’s production of books.

If anyone needs to know why the issues that matter receive so little attention, they only have to observe the superficiality of our current “literature.” If a person’s talents don’t extend as far as writing even a long-form essay, they can always publish their selfies. My life, my opinions, my face. What could possibly be more important?

Random Bits

Just washed out the bread machine, (instead of wiping it down) and while I’m waiting for it to dry, here are some odds and ends on my mind today.

Currently reading Less Than Human: Why We Demean, Enslave, and Exterminate Others, by David Livingstone Smith. It’s a subject that has puzzled me all my life. Once you get beyond all the theories, all of which, when true, are still only part of the answer, the full answer is that the human brain is built that way. From my fly-on-the-wall position in life, I have to say I haven’t seen any improvement in the 3/4 of a century I’ve been alive so far.

To point that up in the most searing way (as if the current president’s political position isn’t enough to make its own contributions, one of the news sites I read daily had this article this morning: Libya is Home to a 21st Century Slave Market and the UN Security Council Won’t Act.

As with virtually all human rights causes, small battles are won, as this one may be, eventually, but the larger war is always lost. Slavery has always, existed, in many forms. I have no doubt that it will continue to exist. One of the stories I work on now and then involves the return of legal slavery to the US, along with an inherited political strata, much like England’s House of Lords.

My stories endlessly tug me between them, so for the moment, I’m back to trying to complete Bentham’s Dream, while still plugging in notes and occasional text fragments for A Well-Educated Boy.

Bread machine is almost halfway through its cycle. Fresh warm bread for lunch!

Solutions Out of Nowhere?

Has my obsession with A Well-Educated Boy finally reached a tipping point or is it just the pressure of an upcoming deadline — November 1 and NaNoWriMo? Whatever the cause, solutions to problems and answers to questions are now turning up with fair regularity. Three major plot points resolved within a week? That’s phenomenal.

Not that it’s going to make the actual writing much easier, except that I’m developing a bit of confidence that this can be done. When you’ve been mulling over a story for five years and are still faced with problems involving major issues, it’s natural to have a few doubts. And when those doubts are rumbling around against a background of questions about whether there’s any point to writing, at all, well then…

Every iota of common sense tells me that nothing I can write will make the slightest difference in how the earth spins. That it may very well be spinning without the company of humans within a century or two — or maybe far less if we’ve entirely failed to grasp the potential costs of tampering with the earth’s systems of operation. In the face of such a sweeping possible outcome, not even Ozymandias’s arrogance and eventual oblivion can serve as a lesson in unjustified pride. Someone once said something along the lines of we are but worms crawling along the surface. I think that’s true. Further, over a long lifetime, I’ve learned that being aware of all this is not the design for a happy or contented life. And if you have the good fortune — or misfortune — to live a long life, it necessarily has to come around to that question — what difference has my life made in any sense that matters?

So, the writing has to be its own reward, and only to me.